Thursday, June 25, 2015

The Voice

Sometimes I just have to sit down and type something, it's a lot like an itch that must be scratched. There is also a bit of freedom in knowing that hardly anyone reads my blog so really, I could write whatever I wanted and no one would know, and yet it's out there in a vast cyber-space with millions of other peoples thoughts and words. Humph.

Isn't it almost absurd how many people have their own blog and can tell us so many things based on their own convictions/agenda/religon/politics/filters/childhood/.... I have read so many different blog posts by other mom's just like myself telling me how I should get my child to sleep at night, when to breastfeed or not to breastfeed, discipline my child or not discipline my child, or not let them watch too much TV, or let them play video games, or not let them play video games, or what to feed them, or what not to feed them all based on their own convictions and beliefs and experiences. The amount of information we have access to these days is astounding and mind-numbing, isn't it? Along with overwhelming and confusing.

Like right now in my life I'm desperately trying to figure out what to do with our own homeschool here in the Ward household. (sigh) I sigh because I am; 1. not an intellect with the fore-knowledge of a prophet who can conclude what each of my children need in the future and present scholastically, and 2. there is just WAY too many opinions and curriculum out there that I almost want to set fire to my computer and gouge my eyes out or just move my whole family to India and help feed, water and clothe the poor and needy and call that "learned".

I don't need any of these voices that are SO loud and constantly making themselves heard. I don't NEED them. Yet I find myself constantly turning to the internet and looking up what other moms are doing; how do they teach, discipline, feed, channel, clothe, form... their children. I enjoy seeing what others do, yet I'm not sure it actually helps ME and my children. Or does it? I can't decide.

I think if we're being honest the real reason we search the web and find out what others are doing in a matter that concerns us or to see what someone thinks of something is because ultimately we desire to succeed in who we are and what we're about and we're hoping to find the answer, the 'quick fix', the key to fulfilling that desire. (Much like my weight issues...).

In the deep recesses of my heart and soul I know there really is only one Person that I want to hear from. Know what He thinks and follow. There really is only One true source of input I need and only One I should put any 'stock' into. And only One whom I should be imitating and giving my children as an established opinion or way. He has already established a Way to follow and path to walk and a life to live. He established it in His Torah (Bible) and really that should be my plumb-line and foundation and the voice I hear in my head on a moment-by-moment basis.

Yahweh help me to pursue Your voice and write Your words on my heart that I might not sin against You or turn aside to the left or the right in my pursuit of life. The voices around us these days are so very loud and persistently trying to draw my heart from the ultimate Voice. Clarify my thoughts that only You are heard and help me to establish YOU and Your voice in our home.

Deuteronomy 11:13 `And it hath been -- if thou hearken diligently unto My commands which I am commanding you to-day, to love Yehovah your God, and to serve Him with all your heart, and with all your soul --
14 that I have given the rain of your land in its season -- sprinkling and gathered -- and thou hast gathered thy corn, and thy new wine, and thine oil,
15 and I have given herbs in thy field for thy cattle, and thou hast eaten, and been satisfied.
16 `Take heed to yourselves, lest your heart be enticed, and ye have turned aside, and served other gods, and bowed yourselves to them,

Joshua 22:5 Only, be very watchful to do the command and the law which Moses, servant of Yehovah, commanded you, to love Yehovah your God, and to walk in all His ways, and to keep His commands, and to cleave to Him, and to serve Him, with all your heart, and with all your soul.'

Observe the charge of Adonai your God to go in his ways and keep his regulations, mitzvot, rulings and instructions in accordance with what is written in the Torah of Moshe; so that you will succeed in all you do and wherever you go.

In all your ways acknowledge him; then he will level your paths.