It's faithful - matchless loyalty.
I've been pondering the many constant adjustments and irritants and disturbances that usually arise within a day as not just a mom and wife, but as a human being. The inner workings of my personality combined with my weaknesses and lack of self-control smacking head-on into the unforeseen circumstances of everyday life can be a very unattractive collision. I see myself reacting (in anger) instead of responding (in gentleness). It's not pretty. I feel my loved ones deserve so much better than what I offer, which is a revelation that leaves such a bitter taste in my mouth and soul.
And then, mixed in with all this daily business, there are these profound moments.
These moments of absolute, heart-breaking joy and captivation.
Such as a moment where I look at my husband from across the room as he's administering his infectious sense of humour and adoration to our kids and I am overwhelmed with my feelings for him, where it feels like a hand is squeezing my heart and I have to hold myself back from jumping the counter to tackle him.
A moment where, it's as though I see my children for the first time and it catches my breath because of the physical beauty I see.
A moment where a reflection of my child's inner beauty sneaks out of them in a gesture of compassion and kindness.
A moment when my sweet baby wraps her little velvety arms around my neck and hugs with ferocious abandon.
A moment where I feel the gentle kiss of Adonai to my heart where I know He is whispering his forgiveness and mercy in spite of all the ugliness I see in myself.
I think these moments are because of LOVE (not to mention a whole lot of sweet grace). It's such a small, little, four-letter, english word, yet it has the power of life and death, because without it in us, for us and through us, what on earth would life be?!!
I'm not writing about the love you hear frivilously spoken of everyday, everywhere. Where the meaning is usually characterized by a feeling or a physical lust or a desire for certain objects.
What I'm talking about is the LOVE that exudes from the eternal, everlasting, uncompromising, true, all-powerful, all-knowing, life-giving, living, holy, perfect Creator. God himself. Love.
What I love about love is Love. :) Peace in.
I Cor. 13:4-8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
1 John 4:8
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
